"Fall hard, fall long, and fall forever...."

Everyone is going to love a person who will never love them back. You will sit there in the corner of  your room, crying..because he will never like you. Too bad people don't fall in love at the same place, at the same time, for the same reasons. That's life. Falling in love is a solo act. I learned that the hard way. You know... you just jump over there and hoping that he will catch you, but NO, he won't. You will end up into that scary place ALONE. And you will experience that again with another person, until you find the right one.

And so... here I am. Again. I wish it could be simple, like my favorite pop song. Or like my favorite love story. I want you to want me. That's it. End of story. Happily ever after. But it's really never like that. I tend to like the ones that NEVER see me in that sort of light.

We waste our time, waiting for that perfect moment to express what we feel. And we don't take time to say the things in our heart when we have the chance.

So to the guy that makes me dancing on air happy, and makes me sad at the same time right now... YOU HAVE NO IDEA how much i wanted to talk to you. To send you a text message. To see how you've been the past few days or weeks. And to tell you how much i really wanted to be with you. But I already know that you will never like me. I knew that even from the start. Because, inevitably, you like someone much better than me. She's so pretty, and I'm so lame, and you're so great, and we're FRIENDS, and it just can't happen.

But you know what? Even after five years, you can still knock on my door and I will welcome you with my arms wide open... Because....still...I want to be the one that makes you feel better. I want to be the one you can giggle and do silly things with and know that I will get it because you know, I'm just as crazy and dorky and goofy as you. I want to be the one you could share your innermost feelings with. I want to be the one that makes you believe in yourself more than you ever did before. I want to be the one you want to talk to when your heart is overflowing. I want to be the one who you know will understand, even when you have no words cause you wouldn't know how to explain. I want to be the one who makes you wholeheartedly believe in love again. I want to be the one you fall in love with.

I want to be the girlfriend, period. Not the FRIEND. Not the confidant or any other else. And certainly not the second choice. I want to be the one, the one, the one and only, for you. I want to be the person you're scared to lose.

I keep on telling myself, "STOP falling. You have enough bruises on that poor heart of yours.."

But I guess, at some point, You've got to stand up for what you feel, and JUMP. Quit being scared of all the what ifs'...or maybes' and just freaking jump....and FALL. "Fall hard, fall long, and fall forever...."